Candles and Callings

This blog's been getting quiet lately. It's starting to echo. Need to write more.

For now I've decided against Internet access at home. Don't need an extra bill every month (though I may change my mind in the dead of winter while weighing the options of braving the cold for free wi-fi vs. staying home without beloved Internet. Brrr.)

Recently I had been reading about the dangers of burning paraffin candles (all the soot they put out, and the carcinogens and stuff that can build up in your space--the zinc wick clips are hazardous too). So I thought, why not try a beeswax candle? Churches tend to burn pure beeswax candles for a reason. They don't damage pictures or walls, they're natural (no fake scents, just the mild scent of honey), they're less messy, and the light is more pure. Then I learned how difficult it can be to find this type of candle--they're expensive (you won't find them at Walmart, that's for certain). I would buy one online if the local post office could find my new address...

So I decided to--get some beeswax at the craft store, and try making candles myself (what am I thinking???) They'll have to be thin ones. Beeswax ain't cheap. Thank God I had birthday money. Someone in front of me gave me her 40%-off coupon (an unexpected blessing--I didn't even ask!) When the cashier gave me a coupon with my receipt, I handed it to the next person. This doesn't happen every day, so it was fun to pass the blessing along.

Lately I've been rather quiet, not just here. I've been considering a path that I never knew existed, and it could turn my life upside-down. At this time I am afraid to even speak of it, for some may not understand. This path completely runs counter to modern culture, but then again...so do I in some respects. I can't imagine how Mother Theresa felt when she was on that train riding to her annual retreat at the convent...and felt the call to leave that convent and serve the poorest of the poor! So I've been asking questions, which are leading to more questions, and more questions.